I'm at my halfway mark! Only 3 more chemo treatments to go! If all goes as planned I will be having surgery the end of May the 1st of June. I had a wonderful visit from Brett and Katie on the 22nd of February. I really enjoyed that. They are doing well Brett is working for Johnson & Johnson right now and Katie is an Iron Angel you should check it out she is gorgeous! Chemo #2 was hard but I made it. Chemo #3 is harder then the last. I started feeling sick at 4pm yesterday! Only 3 hours after I finished my treatment Ug. :-( I have had some questions as to what chemo drugs I am getting. So for those that are interested here they are: Cytoxan and Taxotere it is often referred to as the C/T cocktail. The injection I get the day after to build my blood is called Neulasta. I found this poem by Ginger Johnson it embodies a lot of my feelings so I am going to share it with you. A Letter to My Cancer: It may seem like you have control in my life right now, But you really don"t. Your presence only makes me stronger, braver, Kinder,wiser. I choose how I think, what I speak and how I love. You will never be able to touch those things, NEVER. The fear of your name no longer haunts my soul because I know that my soul belongs to me and to God. You may take your claim on this frail outer shell But never on my divine spirit that cries out "I am not my body". My soul will run, leap and tower over your attempts to pull me down into despair. Those who surround me will fight with me to let it be known that we will not surrender. Our hearts and souls are tied together in a lasting bond that no amount of your impending growth can break. You see cancer, you do NOT own me. I own myself, And I will survive. I'm tired now so I'm going to stop but I will try and blog in a couple of days. I wand to tell you about my meditation river catfish. And I have finished the cancer genealogy. It will blow you away! Bye for now